In her first public statement, since her disturbing courtroom testimony on her “abusive” conservatorship, Britney Spears wrote to her fans on Instagram saying she was sorry for “pretending like I’ve been OK the past two years.”
The pop singer shared that she had not spoken out sooner because she “was embarrassed to share what happened to me (her)” and began by telling fans she had a “little secret.”
The 39-year-old had testified the day prior that she has been forced to work against her will and that the conservatorship has blocked her from getting married or removing her birth control so she could have another baby. She also revealed that her boyfriend is prohibited from driving her in his car and that she can’t see certain friends.
Britney Spears’ conservatorship has been in place for 13 years, which has controlled her life and money. It has given a licensed conservator, a corporate fiduciary, and her father, Jamie Spears, control over her estate, career, medical care, and other aspects of her personal life.
Spears’ caption explained that while her upbeat social media posts may present her life as being “pretty amazing,” it gives her fans the wrong impression.
In her revealing Instagram post on Thursday, Spears’ wrote: “I’m bringing this to peoples attention because I don’t want people to think my life is perfect because it’s definitely not at all … and if you have read anything about me in the news this week … you obviously really know now it’s not !!!!”
“I apologize for pretending like I’ve been ok the past two years,” she continued. “I did it because of my pride and I was embarrassed to share what happened to me … but honestly who doesn’t want to capture (their) Instagram in a fun light!!!!”
The caption was posted alongside a quote attributed to Albert Einstein that said, “If you want your children to be intelligent, read them fairy tales. If you want them to be more intelligent, read them more fairy tales.”
Spears ended her statement by writing: “Believe it or not pretending that I’m ok has actually helped … so I decided to post this quote today because by golly if you’re going through hell … I feel like Instagram has helped me have a cool outlet to share my presence … existence … and to simply feel like I matter despite what I was going through and hey it worked … so I’ve decided to start reading more fairy tales.”
On Wednesday, Britney Spears gave a heartfelt description of her life under conservatorship. She broke her silence in the court hearing by saying, “I’m not happy. I can’t sleep. I’m so angry it’s insane. And I’m depressed.”
During her court appearance, Britney Spears called on the judge to end the conservatorship without the need for further medical assessment.
She also said that she wanted to hire her own attorney instead of being forced to rely on the one appointed by the court, who has not filed a petition to terminate the conservatorship. Spears mentioned that it “made no sense” for her to be forced into a conservatorship while she has a booming career and makes millions of dollars performing.