Major revelations from Meghan Markle, Duchess of Sussex’s interview Oprah Winfrey are never-ending. During Meghan Markle’s interview, which is bound to have consequences for the already shaky foundation of the British Royal Family, she shared that her time as a royal was not as glittery as the world expected and she felt so lonely that she “didn’t want to be alive anymore.”
During Meghan Markle’s interview, the former royal wore Diana’s diamond bracelet. And as promised by CBS, the interview did reveal the real reason behind Meghan and Harry’s split from the Windsors in 2020.
In her chat with Winfrey, Meghan Markle shared how life at the Buckingham Palace is one that is heavily scrutinized, wherein her having lunch with her friends was also monitored.
“I will say I went into it naively, because I didn’t grow up knowing much about the royal family,” Meghan Markle said. We already know that that the former actress had to give up her career and social media profile pages after becoming a royal.
What we didn’t know was that not only did her marriage come with the steep price of losing her freedom of expression but her personal freedom, as well as her passport, driver’s license, and keys, were confiscated after she joined the royal family. They were all returned to her only when the couple actually moved out of the palace after giving up their titles.
What further amped up the tension and stress in her life was the racist and outdated statements against her that appeared in British tabloids which were targeting her relentlessly.
All of it reached a point where Meghan Markle contemplated suicide
But she was hesitant to share her thoughts with her husband who had already lost his mother, Princess Diana, as a child.
“I was really ashamed to say it at the time and ashamed to have to admit it to Harry especially because I know how much loss he has suffered. But I knew that if I didn’t say it, that I would do it — and I just didn’t want to be alive anymore,” Meghan Markle said.
When she did tell Prince Harry about the suicidal thoughts she had been having, he was terrified.
“I had no idea what to do, I went to a very dark place as well, but I wanted to be there for her,” he added. He sought to resolve the continued racist abuse levelled at Meghan Markle and refused to let her suffer in silence but even though the palace had the opportunity to “show some public support.” nothing of the sort happened as “no one from my family ever said anything. That hurts.”
“It was affecting so many other people as well,” he added. “That was the trigger for me to really engage those conversations with the palace, senior palace staff and my family to say, guys, this is not going to end well.”
“I myself was trapped as well. I didn’t see a way out. I was trapped but I didn’t know I was trapped. It has been unbelievably tough for the two of us,” Harry said. “But at least we had each other.”
Even when Meghan Markle tried to deal with her dark thoughts and sought help from a psychotherapist, human resources at Buckingham Palace told her only employees of the institution were afforded that kind of help and as she was a Royal, she couldn’t seek help. So, all she could do was smile in public and suffer in private like she did one evening at the Royal Albert Hall with her husband, in the royal box.
“Every time that those lights went down,” she said,” I was just weeping, and he was gripping my hand.”